I’m scared of falling in love.
I lose myself.
I’m so malleable in love
That I become completely distorted from my reality.
I forget who I am
And who I was before him.
I don’t want to fall in love,
But I love you so completely.

We have all hurt someone tremendously,

Whether by intent or accident. 

We have all loved someone tremendously, 

Whether by intent or accident. 

It is an intrinsic human trait, 

And a deep responsibility, 

I think, 

To be an organ and a blade. 

But, learning to forgive ourselves and others 

Because we have not chosen wisely 

Is what makes us most human. 

We make horrible mistakes. 

It’s how we learn. 

We breathe love. 

It’s how we learn. 

And it is inevitable.

A Letter To The Man Who Loves Me

I.
You can tell me
You love me
In the sunrise
And by midday
I will think
I’m completely
Alone.
Your love is enough
But I feel like
I’m not enough for your love.

II.
I will wake you up
At 2 am
When I’m stone-cold-sober
To say sorry
For everything.
You won’t know what I’m talking about.
Neither will I.
Say it’s okay.

III.
Some days
I will tell you
I need you to hold me.
Tell me
I am strong on my own
But you’ll be there
Just the same.

IV.
I am and will be
Jealous of
Everyone and everything
That goes on
When you’re not with me.
Remind me
That you care but
Never let me make you
Feel guilty for not letting
Your world revolve
Around me.

V.
When I call you crying
One too many times
I don’t need advice,
Just to know
That my tears are not
Falling unheard.

VI.
I will accuse you
Of being sick of me,
Of being tired of me
A lot.
And you will spend
These conversations
Feeling like a broken record.
Don’t get bored of me.
I’m just scared
That you’ll see me
The way I see myself.

VII.
I will never be angry
But I’ll get passive-aggressive.
If I tell you
It doesn’t matter
Tell me
It matters
To you.

VIII.
I’m not as broken
As I often like to think I am.
Don’t try to fix me.
I still need to learn.

IX.
I’m afraid of being rejected
But don’t stay
If you don’t want to.
I’d rather be alone
Than with someone
There out of pity.

X.
Be patient
And let me
Grow into your arms.